I am confused and she is confused and I think [think] that I could feel a lot.
I saw Garden State and went swimming today in a very cold pool. I think I am a little strange.
“Anyway, it was just personal.”
– Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby
Dizzy. Dreamed about holding someone jumpy and excited — Lauren in the dream.
Sometimes I don’t want Rachel, and it’s better then, but she’s so perfect.
“. . . . frequently I have feigned sleep, preoccupation, or a hostile levity when I realized by some unmistakable sign that an intimate revelation was quivering on the horizon; for the intimate revelations of young men, or at least the terms in which they express them, are usually plagiarist and marred by obvious suppressions. Reserving judgments is a matter of infinite hope.”
– Fitzgerald, Great Gatsby
“He was both pleased with and ready to accept the finality of the fact that, if nothing else, he had brought about a fundamental change in her, and that was exactly enough.”
Rollercoaster ride — good thrills, but it’s got its chains.
The word is “verge,” the person is me, the catalyst is for me to know and you to find out.